My senior recital was last night. A success seems to be the general concensus. I am now done with college.
April 6th, 2008
relievedMarch 23rd, 2008
My senior composition recital is April 5th (2 weeks) the reheasals are going ok but I am still very stressed. hell of a thing to take your entire college carreer and weigh it down on a single night.
Saturday April 5
8:00 PM Recital Hall
UNT College of Music
Hope you can all make it.
Saturday April 5
8:00 PM Recital Hall
UNT College of Music
Hope you can all make it.
March 12th, 2008
The G2K Problem: The Gore Quiz
Before he became Bill Clinton's Vice-President, Al Gore wrote a book titled, "Earth in the Balance," his definitive position on the environment and what must be done to protect it.
A few years later, and with no known connection, Theodore Kaczynski, the Unabomber, wrote his manifesto, a rambling critique of late, 20th century technology.
Fox News anchor and columnist Tony Snow suggested that there might be parallels between the two pieces of literature. That set armchair analyst Ken Crossman to work... and the result was "The Gore Quiz." Ken was kind enough to allow us to enhance it a bit and offer to you "The G2K Problem: The Gore Quiz."
Below are quotes from Al Gore and the Unabomber's manifesto. Can you identify who wrote what? Respond to each, one at a time; we'll provide the correct answer right on the spot.
the G2K Quiz
March 10th, 2008
February 17th, 2008
"The Lord, my shepard, is, Yes!"
"may the force be with you..."
"...and also with you"
from the wall of a methodist church near Potsboro, Texas
"may the force be with you..."
"...and also with you"
from the wall of a methodist church near Potsboro, Texas
January 19th, 2008
Seriously, watch this. This guy is being prosecuted for publishing the anti-islamic cartoons in Canada. It sounds so much like the Hank Reardon courtroom speech from Atlas Shrugged
Well I suppose I should update once in a while.
I got a job working at Panera Bread
I sometimes think that the main reason I even applied there is because I love eating there and Sarah does not... so now I eat there several times a week YAY
the job is ok but the somewhat daunting register system makes me nervous still. Everyone I've worked with so far seems nice though, even the managers... even the general manager is nice!
I'm taking the GRE on Tuesday grrr
My senior recital qualification hearing is on Thursday. If I don't pass it I don't get to do my recital and I don't get to graduate... a bit of pressure.
married life is greatufabutastic!!
I found the greatest quote today
by D.H. Lawrence
"Brute Force crushes many plants. Yet the plants rise again.The Pyramids will not last a moment compared to the daisy. And before Buddha or Jesus spoke the nightingale sang, and long after the words of Jesus and Buddha are gone into oblivion the nightingale still will sing. Because it is neither preaching nor teaching nor commanding nor urging. It is just singing. And in the beginning was not a Word, but a chirrup."
January 7th, 2008
I have a job interview in the morning and the same nerves that kept me awake every night before first day of school; audition; and other important things is keeping me up again.
stupid nerves
December 15th, 2007
Today, Sunday December 16th is the anniversary of the Boston Tea Party.
Another supposed "money bomb" day for Ron Paul
His last money bomb day was the 5th of November when he raised 4.3 million Dollars in 24 hours
these are completely arranged by his supporters.
it is still an hour until the 16th in the Central time zone and I just watched Ron Paul get $38,000 in contributions in under 10 minutes
all small individual supporters.
http://www.ronpaul2008.com/
watch the money come in
always err on the side of individual liberty
xxxxx EDITxxxxxx
made $120,000 in 18 minutes
he had 11,550,000.00 approx. at 11:00 PM Central time
keep watching
December 7th, 2007
HYMNEN is a composition that integrates a wide variety of national anthems and transforms them electronically.
I have had a love/hate relationship with Stockhausen for years.
his music is challenging
both technically
and philosophically
He however will live on
despite his difficulties
or
because of them
he will endure beyond
those that ask nothing of
the listener
Art is the freedom to be unpopular
Karlheinz Stockhausen - August 22, 1928 - December 5, 2007
December 1st, 2007
November 4th, 2007
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October 4th, 2007
My wedding is Saturday at 8... you all better be there.
The reception is Saturday at 6... come to that too.
I just got a permanent church gig, Hooray!
it is salaried, which means I get paid regardless of if they are meeting. and $400 a month is very nice for a few hours a week.
The reception is Saturday at 6... come to that too.
I just got a permanent church gig, Hooray!
it is salaried, which means I get paid regardless of if they are meeting. and $400 a month is very nice for a few hours a week.
September 7th, 2007
Caruso
english translation
Here, where the sea shines
and the wind howls,
on the old terrace
beside the gulf of Sorrento,
a man embraces a girl
after the tears,
then clears his throat
and continues the song:
I love you very much,
very, very much, you know;
it is a chain by now
that heats the blood inside the veins, you know…
He saw the lights out on the sea,
thought of the nights there in America,
but they were only the fishermen’s lamps
and the white wash astern.
He felt the pain in the music
and stood up from the piano,
but when he saw the moon
emerging from a cloud,
death also seemed sweeter to him.
He looked the girl in the eyes,
those eyes as green as the sea.
Then suddenly a tear fell
and he believed he was drowning.
I love you very much,
very, very much, you know,
it is a chain by now
that heats the blood inside the vein you know…
The power of opera,
where every drama is a hoax;
with a little make-up and with
mime
you can become someone else.
But two eyes that look at you,
so close and real,
make you forget the words,
confuse your thoughts,
so everything becomes small,
also the nights there in America.
You turn and see your life
through the white wash astern.
But, yes, it is life that ends
and he did not think much about it
on the contrary, he already felt happy
and continued his song:
I love you very much,
very, very much, you know,
it is a chain by now
that heats the blood inside the veins, you know…
I love you very much,
very, very much, you know,
it is a chain by now
that heats the blood inside the veins, you know…
August 13th, 2007
My computer died, again.
Brown out yesterday blew a fuse in my new power supply. It was a cheap power supply so I don't know if it will be cheaper to fix or replace.
Right now I'm trying to decide if I want to graduate in December with my last 13 hours or if I want to save my senior composition recital for the next semester. Dr. Klein says that many students will do their recital by its self because of the extreme demands of time and energy it requires. I'm still undecided.
I'm looking forward to school starting.
Brown out yesterday blew a fuse in my new power supply. It was a cheap power supply so I don't know if it will be cheaper to fix or replace.
Right now I'm trying to decide if I want to graduate in December with my last 13 hours or if I want to save my senior composition recital for the next semester. Dr. Klein says that many students will do their recital by its self because of the extreme demands of time and energy it requires. I'm still undecided.
I'm looking forward to school starting.
July 31st, 2007
I've moved... errr.... again.
You can now reach me at
333 Bernard St. apt. 108
Denton, TX 76201
The Trees Apartments
But I have (and have for a while not) had any internetz.
Still waiting to hear from finacial aid...
so notsure yet if I get to go to college
meh
You can now reach me at
333 Bernard St. apt. 108
Denton, TX 76201
The Trees Apartments
But I have (and have for a while not) had any internetz.
Still waiting to hear from finacial aid...
so notsure yet if I get to go to college
meh
June 28th, 2007
Coming back to Denton early. Look for my coming in the West.
Around 6:00 P.M. if you would like to help unload a road-weary car.
Around 6:00 P.M. if you would like to help unload a road-weary car.
March 29th, 2007
amusedMarch 26th, 2007
March 16th, 2007
March 15th, 2007
I make music! be it an out-of-tune piano or the wrapping of fingers. I live for the sounds I make heard in nature. When I walk the birds sing counterpoint to my footsteps and a crowded room I hear a fugue of different voices and conversations. Clanging glasses and children screaming, pages turning and frantic whispers, keyboards clicking a percussion to accompany the world around me! I hear it all in glorious polyphony... the full spectrum of all creation resounds in my imagination as a symphony for me alone! And it is all MY music. Sometimes I let the rest of the world hear it too. Those that are willing and able I will share with them the supreme beauty of the world I hear, be it roaring crowds or deafening silence. All the world in constant and perpetual adoration of what it means to be alive! This is my religion! Sometimes simple or sublime! But not for the World around me or the whims of a mystical god or even the calls of my brothers. but to let the world resound as if I am the only one she sings for!.. Ah!
March 11th, 2007
ok
just to prove I haven't fallen off a cliff
or something
fast fast update
Been happily dating Sarah for 2 whole weeks now!
here we are:
and that has been my past 2 weeks!
just to prove I haven't fallen off a cliff
or something
fast fast update
Been happily dating Sarah for 2 whole weeks now!
here we are:
and that has been my past 2 weeks!
February 27th, 2007
February 23rd, 2007
Anyone want to come over and watch an opera tonight?
February 18th, 2007
me singing the opening solo from a song called "'round midnight" as performed by The Real Group.
very smokey with some pretty good sounding low C's. hopefully I will get to do this with the resurected Amarillo College(transplanted to UNT) jazz choir.
http://rapidshare.com/files/17117623/_ro
EDIT:
just listened to it again. damn it is so hot!
might be my true calling :)
very smokey with some pretty good sounding low C's. hopefully I will get to do this with the resurected Amarillo College(transplanted to UNT) jazz choir.
http://rapidshare.com/files/17117623/_ro
EDIT:
just listened to it again. damn it is so hot!
might be my true calling :)
February 8th, 2007
interesting read
http://www.canadafreepress.com/2007/glo
coming from a Canadian no less
I've had several semesters of college level geology classes and all my Ph. d wielding professors didn't put any stock in so called "man made" global warming either. They seem to think that "it has only been 10,000 years since the last ice age and the Earth is still reaching homeostasis" but I guess they didn't have a political agenda to factor in to their studies.
http://www.canadafreepress.com/2007/glo
coming from a Canadian no less
I've had several semesters of college level geology classes and all my Ph. d wielding professors didn't put any stock in so called "man made" global warming either. They seem to think that "it has only been 10,000 years since the last ice age and the Earth is still reaching homeostasis" but I guess they didn't have a political agenda to factor in to their studies.
January 28th, 2007
shit! I just realized I don't have a suitcase/garmant bag here. which I need in under 2 hours. Anyone got one I can borrow that can have it here on campus before noon?
January 6th, 2007
December 6th, 2006
not even a little hung-over? really? how am I supposed to learn my lesson about drinking without negative reinforcement? Reality is a pussy!
hungrywell today was an absolutely splendid day!
not only did I pass my double piano jury/proficiency/upper divisional... but the 2 more semesters of upper-divisional lessons that I'm required to take have been waved! That's right... I am officially done with the piano. I never have to touch it again if I don't want to!
Voice jury was really good too... Dr. Nordstrom asked me why I wasn't a vocal major :)
then I hung out with Mariko for the rest of the afternoon/evening/night/morning... till now! She is so cool! We tried to get me drunk, which I very nearly did, well maybe I was. not sure I also smoked my first cigarette ever! walked around the campus with Mariko (almost feeling like it was a date) then smoked another cigarette and spent the rest of the evening singing karaoke in my room! hard to imagine a more perfect day!
Tomorrow..errr... today, I have another date with Sarah! I've not mentioned her by name yet but she is the one responsible for my cryptic post last Thursday! She is really cool but I'm sure I will talk about her more in the future!
If I felt any better I most surely would be sick!
not only did I pass my double piano jury/proficiency/upper divisional... but the 2 more semesters of upper-divisional lessons that I'm required to take have been waved! That's right... I am officially done with the piano. I never have to touch it again if I don't want to!
Voice jury was really good too... Dr. Nordstrom asked me why I wasn't a vocal major :)
then I hung out with Mariko for the rest of the afternoon/evening/night/morning... till now! She is so cool! We tried to get me drunk, which I very nearly did, well maybe I was. not sure I also smoked my first cigarette ever! walked around the campus with Mariko (almost feeling like it was a date) then smoked another cigarette and spent the rest of the evening singing karaoke in my room! hard to imagine a more perfect day!
Tomorrow..errr... today, I have another date with Sarah! I've not mentioned her by name yet but she is the one responsible for my cryptic post last Thursday! She is really cool but I'm sure I will talk about her more in the future!
If I felt any better I most surely would be sick!
December 5th, 2006
was going to tell you how great things went with piano... but it is so good that I can barely sit still long enough to type this!
man I feel great!
man I feel great!
December 4th, 2006
Tomorrow are my juries...
voice jury I'm not worried about.
piano jury has me a bit freaked out though!
this is a HUGE jury too, very important one it has an entire year of lessons riding on it from the past plus if I do poorly it means I will be unable to continue in the composition department.
needless to say that if I survive I'm going to be drinking very much tomorrow night!
now back to panicking!
voice jury I'm not worried about.
piano jury has me a bit freaked out though!
this is a HUGE jury too, very important one it has an entire year of lessons riding on it from the past plus if I do poorly it means I will be unable to continue in the composition department.
needless to say that if I survive I'm going to be drinking very much tomorrow night!
now back to panicking!
stressedDecember 3rd, 2006
Continuing the tradition... plus seeing it on other peoples LJ this is my year in review
(first sentence of thefirst entry of each month)
January
"If a life can have a theme song, and I believe every worthwhile one has, mine is a religion, an obsession, or mania, or all of these expressed in one word... Individualism.
February
I'm going to have this piece read and recorded by the UNT Symphony orchestra at the end of this semester
March
"I always think there's a band"
~Prof. Harold Hill "The Music Man"
April
I've got 2 solos in the Collegium concert we're doing a Vittoria Parody Mass
May
Well I feel a bit better... not because anything has changed but because I spent the past 2 hours editing the audio from my orchestra reading
June
Tomorrow I'll be in Boston. I'm convinced that nothing will come of it but I know I would regret it if I didn't take the chance. that being said
...I still think I'm being a fool.
July
Well I spent the day on the piano today
August
September
I've come to the somewhat grey conclusion that I may have to give up the piano.
October
Who's a church whore? that would be me!
November
I just realized I am enrolled in 19 hours this semester... that explains a lot!
December
Ok.... I've finally decided I should start making some friend filters!
and what a year it has been!
(first sentence of thefirst entry of each month)
January
"If a life can have a theme song, and I believe every worthwhile one has, mine is a religion, an obsession, or mania, or all of these expressed in one word... Individualism.
February
I'm going to have this piece read and recorded by the UNT Symphony orchestra at the end of this semester
March
"I always think there's a band"
~Prof. Harold Hill "The Music Man"
April
I've got 2 solos in the Collegium concert we're doing a Vittoria Parody Mass
May
Well I feel a bit better... not because anything has changed but because I spent the past 2 hours editing the audio from my orchestra reading
June
Tomorrow I'll be in Boston. I'm convinced that nothing will come of it but I know I would regret it if I didn't take the chance. that being said
...I still think I'm being a fool.
July
Well I spent the day on the piano today
August
a knife with a sharp edge,
that's all I would need,
so if my brother needs a hand out
I could cut it off of my flesh.
that's all I would need,
so if my brother needs a hand out
I could cut it off of my flesh.
September
I've come to the somewhat grey conclusion that I may have to give up the piano.
October
Who's a church whore? that would be me!
November
I just realized I am enrolled in 19 hours this semester... that explains a lot!
December
Ok.... I've finally decided I should start making some friend filters!
and what a year it has been!
December 2nd, 2006
Ok.... I've finally decided I should start making some friend filters!
This one is going to be my sex and relationship filter.
here I will post about my sex and dating life.
if you would like to be included in this filter please leave a comment on this post. (comments will be screened)
I will add anyone who wants to be.. don't be shy!
This one is going to be my sex and relationship filter.
here I will post about my sex and dating life.
if you would like to be included in this filter please leave a comment on this post. (comments will be screened)
I will add anyone who wants to be.. don't be shy!
November 30th, 2006
ah, my fathful friends... if only you knew some of the shit I've been up to lately.
might make you raise an eye-brow in concern... or delight!
anyway... got another date tonight
snow snow snow
might make you raise an eye-brow in concern... or delight!
anyway... got another date tonight
snow snow snow
November 28th, 2006
I've slept about 6 hours total in the past 4 days. Things just seem to be going so well socially that I either am doing things other than sleeping or I am so thrilled with things that I can't sleep. (thank you all who have contributed... especially Faina and Mariko)
oh yeah.... 7 days till juries! I have a double piano jury (30 minutes of music) a piano proficiency exam and upper-divisional exam in piano... and I have a voice jury
ALL ON THE SAME DAY!
also I am so broke... I have $25 to last me the next 3 weeks. then Game Over!
My life is so crazy at the moment... But I've never had more fun!
oh yeah.... 7 days till juries! I have a double piano jury (30 minutes of music) a piano proficiency exam and upper-divisional exam in piano... and I have a voice jury
ALL ON THE SAME DAY!
also I am so broke... I have $25 to last me the next 3 weeks. then Game Over!
My life is so crazy at the moment... But I've never had more fun!
giddyNovember 27th, 2006
Well I've met another girl that is willing to date me! + 1 for the home team.
We've actually met and she still wants to date me... off to a good start.
We've actually met and she still wants to date me... off to a good start.
November 26th, 2006
I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate, a poet... a pawn, and a king
and that has just been in the last 24 hours!
I've been valiant, and an asshole
hesitant, and insistent;
bold, and a coward!
either way... been another day of first!
Got almost no sleep last night and yet I am still full of energy.
I feel my most recent posts have been uncharacteristically cryptic
oh well
if you're curious fell free to ask.
one thing is for sure:
Each time I find myself laying flat on my face I just pick myself up and get back in the Race!
That's Life!
and that has just been in the last 24 hours!
I've been valiant, and an asshole
hesitant, and insistent;
bold, and a coward!
either way... been another day of first!
Got almost no sleep last night and yet I am still full of energy.
I feel my most recent posts have been uncharacteristically cryptic
oh well
if you're curious fell free to ask.
one thing is for sure:
Each time I find myself laying flat on my face I just pick myself up and get back in the Race!
That's Life!
November 24th, 2006
I was going to make a long entry about all my "firsts" that I've experienced in the past 24 hours... but I've changed my mind!
instead I just want to say how much I adore![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
titanium_kitty at the moment! She is proving to be a real friend. As many of my "firsts" today were directly a result of her kindness and downright hotness!
I am in your debt!
Thank you for making this my best Thanksgiving ever!
(This post was intentionally left cryptic to throw off suspicion... and encourage even more)
:)
instead I just want to say how much I adore
titanium_kitty at the moment! She is proving to be a real friend. As many of my "firsts" today were directly a result of her kindness and downright hotness!I am in your debt!
Thank you for making this my best Thanksgiving ever!
(This post was intentionally left cryptic to throw off suspicion... and encourage even more)
:)
November 21st, 2006
well looks like I will be eating a can of cranberry sauce alone for thanksgiving this year. Everyone I know is leaving for the break
pity
pity
November 17th, 2006
I sometimes forget how emotionally fragile I am. I try to wear an attitude of stoic indifference but that is not who I am I just feel things too deeply... causing me to either withdraw from the world or face bursting into tears at the slightest provocation. And then the world starts to feel like I'm in it way too deep.
I wish I could trade in my answers for better ones but it seems that my poison is also my cure at the moment.
I wish I could trade in my answers for better ones but it seems that my poison is also my cure at the moment.
November 14th, 2006
well today is shaping up to be the best day ever!
got a 98 (with curve) on my god-awful music history mid-term.
had coffee with a new lady friend
all the rest of todays classes for me aren't meeting
(so no choir or piano lesson)
spending the evening with Mariko (maybe going swimming)
(then we are going to the Acapella concert)
then the new girl I've just met is coming over tonight
Best potential day ever!
................EDIT
shit shit shit shit shit
apparently tonight is going to be an official "name brand" date!
I am all of a sudden getting very very nervous!
I've not had a real date in over 4 years.
and back then I was very naive (and religious) as were my girlfriends!
I feel like my stomach is going to implode.
eep!
got a 98 (with curve) on my god-awful music history mid-term.
had coffee with a new lady friend
all the rest of todays classes for me aren't meeting
(so no choir or piano lesson)
spending the evening with Mariko (maybe going swimming)
(then we are going to the Acapella concert)
then the new girl I've just met is coming over tonight
Best potential day ever!
................EDIT
shit shit shit shit shit
apparently tonight is going to be an official "name brand" date!
I am all of a sudden getting very very nervous!
I've not had a real date in over 4 years.
and back then I was very naive (and religious) as were my girlfriends!
I feel like my stomach is going to implode.
eep!
nervousNovember 13th, 2006
well after my rough night of sleep this day was hardly salvageable... but it could of been much worse. I think the brightest ray of sun (not counting running into titanium_kitty in the hall) was I had a really good composition lesson today. spent the entire hour discussing the 3"30' intermittent canon and fugue I wrote for the middle section of my bass clarinet/bassoon duet I'm writting "rise of the double standard".
virtual instrument performance of just the intermittent canon and fugue as promised/threatened
My composition teacher liked it I think... more importantly... I really like it. it starts out with a very loose melodic canon. then after a transition, with the bassoon finally getting a lovely melody, the fugue begins (bassoon solo). the first fugue subject is rhythmic, bouncy and fun, after several episodes the canon melody comes back, this time using the bouncy rhythm of the rhythmic fugue subject, turning it into a double fugue! after the last stretto there is an almost Bach like coda (complete with pedaltone) it is really a fun little section where both instruments are cooperating.
the piece is divided into 3 sections the parasite, cooperation, the innovator
granted, I know it is hardly a subtle portrait of my Objectivist philosophy.. but it isn't supposed to be subtle!
actually, Dr. Klein (dean of composition) says that my philosophic usage in my music is one of my selling features for applying to Grad. schools.
Dr. Klein is so awesome!
I'll post a score,mixophrygian, when I make it prettier :)
I may have to rescore a bit of the clarinet line... unless I can find someone with a bass clarinet in C.
titanium_kitty in the hall) was I had a really good composition lesson today. spent the entire hour discussing the 3"30' intermittent canon and fugue I wrote for the middle section of my bass clarinet/bassoon duet I'm writting "rise of the double standard".virtual instrument performance of just the intermittent canon and fugue as promised/threatened
My composition teacher liked it I think... more importantly... I really like it. it starts out with a very loose melodic canon. then after a transition, with the bassoon finally getting a lovely melody, the fugue begins (bassoon solo). the first fugue subject is rhythmic, bouncy and fun, after several episodes the canon melody comes back, this time using the bouncy rhythm of the rhythmic fugue subject, turning it into a double fugue! after the last stretto there is an almost Bach like coda (complete with pedaltone) it is really a fun little section where both instruments are cooperating.
the piece is divided into 3 sections the parasite, cooperation, the innovator
granted, I know it is hardly a subtle portrait of my Objectivist philosophy.. but it isn't supposed to be subtle!
actually, Dr. Klein (dean of composition) says that my philosophic usage in my music is one of my selling features for applying to Grad. schools.
Dr. Klein is so awesome!
I'll post a score,
mixophrygian, when I make it prettier :)I may have to rescore a bit of the clarinet line... unless I can find someone with a bass clarinet in C.
slipping from a nightmare into a bad daydream... the day is not looking up.
November 12th, 2006
UNT's gamers club held a movie day today... really just an excuse to sit around and do nothing. but it was fun!
early in the day I got a few of my friends to play som "off-handed" darts (darts that you can only use you non-dominant hand [seemed only fair])
actually it took several tries before we actually were able to even hit the dartboards..
first strucksongofbeth with the first bullseye (within the first 10 darts no less)
Then me a few darts later (my first bullseye ever... even back into my 2 hand days)
also this is very rare picture of me not dressed in some sort of tie or dress appearal
AWWW... poorserenade1803
Was a fun day!
early in the day I got a few of my friends to play som "off-handed" darts (darts that you can only use you non-dominant hand [seemed only fair])
actually it took several tries before we actually were able to even hit the dartboards..
first struck
songofbeth with the first bullseye (within the first 10 darts no less)Then me a few darts later (my first bullseye ever... even back into my 2 hand days)
also this is very rare picture of me not dressed in some sort of tie or dress appearal
AWWW... poor
serenade1803Was a fun day!
November 10th, 2006
Well my girlfriend search has gone nowhere thus far (but it is getting there very fast) I've met more woman in the past 2 weeks than I have in the previous year combined. all amounting to nothing of course.
It has been a pretty difficult few weeks for me because of this, and I fear it will only get harder. So I will take this opportunity to fawn over my new best friend! I'd forgotten how good it feels to have a real friendship with someone. The casual familiarity that allows me to let my guard down and enjoy myself in the presence of another person. I can't begin to express the gratitude I feel toward her for putting up with me for the past 2 months. I don't know if she realizes how much I've found myself depending on her friendship and support. It is because of her that I've begun finding my self-confidence. She always makes me feel better about myself no matter how emotionally empty I feel. It is a fact that without her I would not be searching for a girlfriend, I've always always had a very poor sense of my self-image, even more so since I lost an arm, she has helped me to believe that some woman might find me attractive (I'm still not sure of this but I am at least entertaining the possibility). She is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time!
And here I am staying up way to late to type this. but it is too important for me to not include in this Livejournal snippet of my life. If she feels 1/10th towards me the gratitude I feel towards her I will be content. For she is my best friend and I couldn't be happier!
It has been a pretty difficult few weeks for me because of this, and I fear it will only get harder. So I will take this opportunity to fawn over my new best friend! I'd forgotten how good it feels to have a real friendship with someone. The casual familiarity that allows me to let my guard down and enjoy myself in the presence of another person. I can't begin to express the gratitude I feel toward her for putting up with me for the past 2 months. I don't know if she realizes how much I've found myself depending on her friendship and support. It is because of her that I've begun finding my self-confidence. She always makes me feel better about myself no matter how emotionally empty I feel. It is a fact that without her I would not be searching for a girlfriend, I've always always had a very poor sense of my self-image, even more so since I lost an arm, she has helped me to believe that some woman might find me attractive (I'm still not sure of this but I am at least entertaining the possibility). She is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time!
And here I am staying up way to late to type this. but it is too important for me to not include in this Livejournal snippet of my life. If she feels 1/10th towards me the gratitude I feel towards her I will be content. For she is my best friend and I couldn't be happier!
November 9th, 2006
I forgot how much fun it is writing fugues... currently writing one for the middle section of my duet for bass clarinet and bassoon "rise of the double standard". I'll try to upload the middle section "intermittent canon and fugue" in a bit (virtual instruments of course) assuming anyone is interested! Actually I'll probably upload it anyway but if someone wants to humor me and pretend they want to hear it :)
exhaustedNovember 5th, 2006
I just realized I am enrolled in 19 hours this semester... that explains a lot!
Everyone come hear Mozart at the Murcheson at 3:00 today. Actually... this is a pretty weightless advertisment. I think almost all of my local LJ friends are performing in it too!
Everyone come hear Mozart at the Murcheson at 3:00 today. Actually... this is a pretty weightless advertisment. I think almost all of my local LJ friends are performing in it too!